A Painting of Pain..
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I heard this song years after it came out in 2018, in 2023, and it reminded me of something painful I am going through in my life that has took years of waiting and navigating. The song is beautifully abstract, yet some think it is clear that there is pain. Sonic Hits did a write up on this and breakdown of the lyrics, and seemed to imply that their perception was being in an abusive relationship and you will keep taking it.
That is one way of looking at it, but for me, it is about having to do something painful because for some reason it is what you are supposed to do, and you do not even understand it. Meaning, it is part of your life purpose, it is part of a greater calling. No, I cannot explain more in detail because it is intensely personal, and I will never share it with anyone.
It concerts love, and waiting for it miserably but the details I can't give. They would sound because it is more of a life plan, a fated thing I have to go through. I found this out through hundreds of signs and synchronicities that were so huge they were impossible to ignore. I did try for years to stop it, to quit, and something deep down felt like I had to go back, there was no escaping this, and I would be twelve times more miserable if I just gave up.
So to me, this song represents my journey in that, and I painted this painting while hearing the song on repeat, it did not take too long, and I finger painted it. I chose red and black because they are powerful colors and express emotion well. The painting however, is not "pretty”and I have tried to tell this song story before, put up a video a shorts on it, and people watched it and never said anything. I took it down, and felt humiliated and still try to stop putting this painting up because I keep thinking it is too much for people, and it is ugly and nobody will want this, but the story behind it is deep beyond words and it is crippling and sad, but there is all the hope for the future.
So when the lyrics say that Ï will bathe in blood”....that is what I am doing so to speak..and waiting in agony. I will not leave comments open on this, people say whatever pops into their heads online and nobody has any tact or decency and they will try to say something hateful or bossy and this is my life, so instead I ask you kindly to listen to the song. Give all the credit in the world to Lissom, these underrated Singers, who sing in beautiful harmony in this acoustic piano song that is so stunningly amazing from end to end.
If you have the courage and the deep mind to like this painting and see something complex the way it is meant to be seen, than request a print and I will order one for you.
In the lyrics, the chorus sings of 'thrill in ivory’ which speaks of the piano. Thrilling in music, finds peace in music and the piano so it is a way out of the hell they feel. But it is so much more deep than that and can be interpreted in any way you want, that feels right to your life. This is why I like Lissom songs. They are very abstract and that is true art to me. I am an Abstract Painter, so I love songs that are vague and mysterious, so I can put my own meaning in them as I feel a true song should be, that is what makes it art. Many songs of course blatantly speak only of a simple issue, but even those can be taken a different way if that is what you want.
"Becoming what you made me”is implying that this has took it's toll on the person.."making a body break"...That is me.
Some journey's in life you just don't want to go through, and you have to anyway. I read NDE's for a few years recently and was sad to find out that we choose to come here and we choose what we will do and what paths we will take in life. This is so huge, and complex and all roads lead to it in my life, so there is no getting away from it. It has to end at some point with a conclusion, on a hopeful note because that would match the synchronicities seen. Some believe that signs are your future self sending you a message. That gets to me, and makes me think if that is true, I better pay attention.
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